Disheartened..

"You always leave me questioning whether you'll come for me.Leave me being clueless about what's happening."

"You always take me for granted.I always feel like you stop appreciating me."

"If you really love me as how you've been telling, why aren't you here for me when I need you."

"I'm so tired..I don't want to fight anymore. This is going no where."

"Why are you avoiding us talking about our problems?Why are you pointing the problem back at me, saying its my fault?"

The ultimate question: "Is there someones else you've found???"

Only the two of you can save or end this relationship. There is no need for friends or family to intervene, they can only advice.. *always here for u*

Wedding event

Our first Indian wedding together..
It was a last minute invitation from the bf..
Maybe when he has seen it, he'll understand what i've been trying to reach out to him.My point of view! *still standing strong*It is a very beautiful hall with presentations from dancers.Oh..the bride is very hot =)
The only setback was the MC. He was quite lousy with his speeches and attempts to joke. Everyone could feel that he came unprepared.And once the dinner has been served, half the people sitting on our table left.

After that, we felt so weird being the only people sitting on our table. Even tables around our tables left after dinner. We decided to leave too..hehe

We decided to head for a movie. Unfortunately, Mr.Second Wife came and join us.Movies were sold out and we just hung around Pavilion and chill. Haven't done that for the longest time. Just to sit down, relax, be chatty, lots of laughing till tears form in my eyes and simply spend time with him.signs of brotherhood???this i like :D

Holidays!

I've been away..neglecting this blog of mine.
Well,whatever the reasons were its all in the past.
Exams are over and done with.Here comes the hard part..anticipating results.DAMN IT!!

My heart races and beats so quickly every time a flick of a page of a book i'm reading pulls me back to the memory of how near the time is.Each time my heart worries, I close my eyes and pray to Him. Its been awhile since i prayed, felt guilty for not spending time even for the shortest moment just to thank Him.I feel better and better each time i lay down my worries to Him.He never fails me.

hmm..what have i been doing?
the answer is..bumming...
going back and forth to Jakarta..shopping!
haha..that will cure my worriness..:)

Last week was the first time i laid my bum on the seats of a business class..
Call me "jakun" call me anything, it feels like a kid again experiencing new things alone.Seats were bigger..food definitely more varieties.owh..one last thing! Air stewardess..DAMN POLITE!Compared to seating in economy class, they were snobbish and rude and not helpful.okays..enough of rantings.I'll continue my book.Cheers!

Bonds..Relationship..

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!

p/s: Thanks mom for everything.I admire the things you've done for the family.I know no one will ever replace you in my heart. Your always the one I run to whenever I'm sad and lonely.Now that I'm grown up, I'm sure one day I'll take care of you as how you've taken care of me. I love you mummy :)

A Girl's Dream..

Its been awhile I eyed on the Juicy Couture bags in Pavillion. Wasn't sure how many boutiques available in Malaysia but I definitely saw what I wanted from the day i stepped in the store.

Nonetheless, I kept waiting for the day to come when I can purchase the bag cos it isn't a cheap bag..needs a lot of thinking :)

NOW! FINALLY! daddy fulfilled my dreams..brought all of us shopping and got my mom and I a bag each..hehe
definitely Prada belongs to mummy..but i can 'pao'sneak peak on what's inside the bags..classic.simple.classy.next on my list..Tiffany & Co. *wishing hard silently*

Darling's 21st birthday

16th APRIL 2009
Darling,
Today you turn 21.. *blows kisses*
I never stop loving you..even when we have horrible arguments..
I know you enjoy chocolate cake..bet you will love it alot :)DECANTER Too
SURPRISE DARLING! Chen hwa helped me to gather the rest of your friends along to celebrate on your big day!
-the blindfold, the seducing chats & the long walks I went thru with you was all worth it-gotcha ;)

Mom's 50th birthday

Celebrated my mom's birthday.home sweet home as soon as she landed :)
So busy with many things haven't get her a present yet..coming soon*pending*A Mother's love is something that no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain,
It is endless and unselfish and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it or take that love away . . .
It is patient and forgiving when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters even though the heart is breaking . . .
It believes beyond believing when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty of the rarest, brightest gems . . .
It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret like the mysteries of creation . . .
A many splendoured miracle man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence of God's tender guiding hand.

*don't think i'll be who i am today without her* love u always~